Sshhh

there is a fear that I alone know
that hugs me tightly as I go

it’s with me when I blink an eye

and also when I scream out why

I caress it in under the happy sun

we snuggle when the day’s all done

I hide it well with an easy smile

that hurts when it lingers a while

and so we dance this daily dance

like lovers frozen in college romance

but through this macabre pantomime

of inhales, exhales and surviving time

and asking why it should be so wrong

I emerge braver, a little more strong

ram cobain